DAY 2

213.3

Interested or Committed?

"When you're truly committed to achieving your goals, you have an entirely different outlook. Unlike being interested, where it doesn't take much to detract you from your goals, being committed means you stick with it, not matter what."

(From 100 Days of Weight Loss by Linda Spangle) She adds,

"Start adopting a 'no matter what' atitude, then convince yourself you can stay with your goals regardless of your daily challenges."

There is a difference and I'm guilty of being interested without real committment for the long-haul.

She challenges me to do at least one
thing today that demonstrates I am truly committed. So...regardless of whatever excuses I tend to give way to,
I WILL DO THE TIME ON THE TREADMILL.

DAY 1...50x50

212.9

Still not eating sugar and drinking lots and lots of water, but the weight changed directions again. It gets discouraging. But, I'm trudging forward.
My weight always goes crazy with PMS and MS. I try not to let it discourage me though.

My new objective....50X50
50 pounds by the time I'm 50 years old, 6 months from now. It won't get me to goal weight, but it's real close.

Day 1

From "100 Days of Weight Loss": "Your past does not determine your future. In fact, your previous failures have absolutely no effect on your ability to succeed now. Starting today, eliminate the belief that things always go a certain way or that you never stay with your goals. Whenever those doubts creeepback in, immediately give yourself this new message:
I used to be that way, but now I'm different!...Rather than being fearful tht you'll repeat the past, build a new way of thinking."

Mental objective: Eliminate "can't" and "always" from my vocabulary. Say aloud, "I used to be that way, BUT now I'm different."

210.7

210.8

Some Reflection

212 lbs.

This week, so far I have filled up on lots of water and I have not eaten sweets so I'm feeling pretty good. The resolve is still strong and every day that the resolve is strong builds the foundation for the next day and for my life. Yea!

As much as I love to drink water, I'd stopped drinking very much of it over the past months. I'd been drinking too many other things in its place-tea, coffee, soda. The soda is a definite no-no. I didn't drink them in excess, maybe one a day, but one a day adds up.

From all I've read about nutrition over the years all the sugars are playing havoc with my system. So I also want to watch to see how my body and emotions are feeling without all that sugar going through me. I go through spells of eating a lot of sugar and other times it is minimal, but recently I've been consuming quite a bit, which would explain some of the extra weight I put on in the past two weeks.

I've been contemplating what next week small changes will be. I know for sure I will add working out on the treadmill again. As far as what I'll eliminate the list of possibilities is large, keeping in mind that I'm really trying to do this one SMALL change at a time. I could eliminate bad fats (mayo, butter) or negative things I say about myself (this tears down my progress on a deeper level). Again I don't eat a lot of mayo or butter. I use cooking spray or Smart Balance for those needs most of time time. I eat mustard more than I do mayo, but when you as overweight as I am, every smidgen adds up one way or the other.

I'll just continue to pray and ask God about my Small Change Plans. I know I can't do this without the Holy Spirit's empowerment.

214.3 lbs

Progress

214.9 lbs.

I drank a lot of water yesterday. I didn't eat sugar. Yea! I did do some time on the treadmill, but not as much as I'd planned. I will continue this week with these 3 objectives before I add any more elements to the mix.

Starting Point

217 lbs
That's 3 pounds heavier than this time last week.

Tomorrow, Tomorrow

Tomorrow, Tomorrow

It's been a long battle to lose weight.
I have hated myself and am coming to love myself, but I still want the excess weight gone.

This, my most recent plan, is to add something healthy or that promotes my goal while I also eliminate something that is standing between me and my goal each week. I am going to start tomorrow with two objectives to begin with:

1) Eliminate sugar from my diet. At least at this time, I am in bondage to sugar and can't eat any without wanting more. I need to get it out of my system.
2) Drink 8 glasses of water or more. This one is generally fairly easy for me, because I like water and drink a lot of it.

I'll log my weight tomorrow. I want so much to be successful. I must commit to the long term process of weight loss and also be committed to lifestyle changes not dieting for results. I am very overweight. People still tend to compliment me on the way I look, but being just over 200 lbs is appalling to me. I haven't always been overweight. I was once a slim size 5, even after having my babies. It was after their birth that the weight came on and it came on quickly at first and then steadily crept up. That was 20 years ago.

Some of the reasons I want to lose weight:
1) To be fit and healthy
2) To feel my best physically
3) To be able to jog again; I once loved running
4) To look good for myself
5) To buy the clothes I want to wear and not size 18's.
6) Even though my husband thinks I am beautiful, I want to really look good for him again. He deserves it.
7) To conquer my biggest obstacles and be victorious.